Before anything else, I'd like to great my cousin, Ikoy, [Hi Parts!!] a HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! ;-)

MEN ARE LIKE.. blah blah blah.

1. Men are like.......Laxatives.......They irritate the crap out of you.

2. Men are like.......Bananas.......The older they get, the less firm they are.

3. Men are like.......Weather.......Nothing can be done to change them. [Haha! This is so TRUE!!]

4. Men are like.......Blenders.......You need one, but you're not quite sure why. [Haha! Mega and I can relate to this one.]

5. Men are like.......Chocolate Bars.......Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.

6. Men are like.......Commercials........You can't believe a word they say.

7. Men are like.......Department Stores.......Their clothes are always 1/2 off.

8. Men are like.......Government Bonds.......They take soooooooo long to mature. [Haha! True enough!]

9. Men are like.......Mascara.......They usually run at the first sign of emotion. [Aww. Can't deny the fact that they really do.]
10. Men are like.......Popcorn.......They satisfy you, but only for a little while. [Haha! True.. again.]

11. Men are like.......Snowstorms.......You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last. [Gawd, Mega, where did you get this ba? Haha! True ulit!!]

12. Men are like.......Lava Lamps.......Fun to look at, but not very bright. [Haha! No comment.]

13. Men are like.......Parking Spots.......All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped. [Whahahahaha! Yun lang. Hahaha!]

No offense, guys, just got this from Mega. ;-) Gawd, I miss Mega BIGTIME. I love you, jerk! ;-)

Anyway, I was with my first year college classmates in Baguio for three days two nights. Gawd. It was a blast! I had sooo much fun! For once, I wasn't really able to think about him that much. Sure, I thought about him once in awhile, but not too much naman, like what I'd usually do here in Manila. We stayed at Camp John Hay Manor. [I missed the place. Really. When I was still a kid, my family would usually go there every break.] The place was just so relaxing. Nakakatanggal talaga ng stress. I felt like I was far from all the troubles and heartaches. Hah. Drama. Since it was so cold in Baguio, my friends and I decided to drink for two nights. Haha. Grabe. It was the first time talaga na tinamaan talaga ako. Super. We drank too much ata the first night. Haha! We all turned red and we were all bangag. After the drinking session, bagsak lahat kami sa bed. Haha. Super memorable. I'm missing it already. [Next time ulit, guys!] On the second night, I didn't drink much na, because we had to wake up early the following day. Si Jof lang yung super lakas uminom nung last night namin. He must've remembered someone. Haay. Comfort. Pero I think he's better when he's drunk, kasi he doesn't tease me eh. Haha! Silang dalawa ni Cid, grabe kung mang-asar eh. Super olats ako. Hah. It was also on our second night when I've asked so many questions to Aya and Cid. Haha. Hotseat talaga. [Chismosa talaga ako. Haha. Thanks to Kesh and Kams sa paghelp sakin mag extract ng infos. Haha! I'm missing the two of you na..] And tama bang pati ako tanungin nila ng kung anu-ano? Haha. Unlike Cid, derechong tanong, derechong sagot naman yung sakin. Haha! What else? Hmm. I can't deny the fact that it's great to spend some time with your special someone in Baguio. Apart from the fact that it's so cold there, [Hah. It's a wonderful feeling diba to hug someone when the weather/climate's just so great? ;-) I can smell opportunity. Haha.] there are so many wonderful sights too [Picture galore sana. Argh]. I envied Aya and Cid nga kasi ultimate bonding sila. Super daming mushy moments, and I just couldn't control myself from staring at them and wishing that he's with us. Haha. Pathetic. Yan tuloy, I remembered him ulit. Dammmit. So there, I've uploaded our pictures in Baguio. You guys can check out my multiply. ;-)

I just wanna share with you what Jof sent me about three days ago. Here it goes..

"It's better to have NOBODY than somebody who is half yours, half there or doesn't want to be there, or is there and then suddenly disappears."

Omg. Tinamaan naman ako diba. Haha. Wake up call na ba to? Hah. Haay. I just hate the fact that I loved too much, only to find out that he's not for me talaga. We just can't work things out. There's always something tearing us apart. Although I've been trying to patch things up with him, wala parin talaga. Oh well. Is this the part where I can surely say that enough is really enough? Crap.

Eto pa, from Kat. Hah. Patama ba lahat? Pwe.

"You deserve someone better.."

One of the most bullshit reasons I've ever heard. Why? Because he could have been better if he tried to, and it could have been me, if he wanted to.

Oh well. Walang ka effort effort eh. What can I say? Or kung meron nga, hindi ko makita.. hindi ko maramdaman. Madrama na kung madrama, pero wala talaga eh. Ain't a manghuhula. I don't know what he wants. Crap talaga. Tapos he'll say na he wants me to still communicate with him? What the? What for?? Haay. Okay lang naman sana eh, kung hindi ako yung always nagpaparamdam ng una. Pansin ko lang noh. Siya naman ulit. I miss the old times. I feel like I don't know him anymore. :-( He's just too hard to understand. Well, for someone who never explains, talagang mahirap maintindihan. Tapos he went pa dun sa trip nila ng HS friends niya. Waa. Great. I told myself that if he goes there, this is the end of it all. Maybe this is really enough. Argh. He didn't listen to me, and I hate him for that. :-(

"Love has no room for selfish people who think only of themselves. If we have been too busy with our work, have been kept by our distorted priorities then it's about time that we stop for a while and think about the people who we might have stepped on and taken for granted, love isn't forever. Let us not wait too long to appreciate those who have unselfishly given it to us for all that may be left tomorrow are just the bitter and cold memories of someone who loved too much but was never loved enough."

I just can't be like this forever. I mean, dwelling on this situation of ours. Crying over him. Wishing for the impossible. And the list goes on. I have to go on with my life. I've done my part, I'll give him the time and space that he needs, and If he really loves me a lot naman diba, he'll take all the risks to have me once again. It's all up to him.

So Sick by Ne Yo.. Just loving it. Dammmit.

'Til then.

+ karen +