I don't understand why there's always someone who's gonna be hurt in one way or another.
It's been a while since I last checked my blog. I've been busy with school, as always. We had our monthly exam from 18 December to 20 December. Imagine, 5 days before Xmas, we still had to go to school for the exams and for the much-awaited Paskuhan. Our school really did make the most out of the month. Our prof said that classes will resume on the 3rd of January. Whaaat? Why so early? Dammit.
Anyway, on the last day of the Monthly exam, my RLE mates and I went to SM San Lazaro to have lunch at Chef d' Angelo. Guia, Nicole and Pey brought their cars that's why we were able to arrive at the mall that fast. While Guia was buying a gift for Maricar, we saw some of our friends from 3-8. Grabe. I miss them.. bigtime! After that, we headed to Chef to meet our other RLE mates. Before eating, we exchanged gifts. I'd like to thank Pey for his gift. Although it wasn't what I wrote on our Wish List, it still meant something to me. Thanks again! ;-) I'd also like to thank John Mike and Chino for being with us on that special event, since they are the ones who always have other business to attend to every time we schedule for an RLE bonding. Your presence really did mean something to us. *Puke* Haha! No, seriously, it was almost perfect when the two of you were there. Thanks! After lunch, we headed straight to G-Box to exercise our vocal cords, to show our hidden talent in singing, and to just enjoy each other's company. It was more than what I've expected. I never really imagined that all of us would be that happy. Like what Ria said, it was a euphoric experience for our RLE. ;-) The place wasn't bad for P100 per hour. The price was cheap, but the place wasn't. Get it? Got it? Good. Hah. As always, my first song was Breathless by the Corrs. I just love singing that song. I remember the time when Clarice celebrated her 18th birthday in Bulacan, I sang that song to Chris. Hah. Very memorable. ;-) Anyway, we had so many pictures during our lunch date and our videoke session. I hope that our RLE would have another bonding experience like this. We even planned on alloting a day, our so-called RLE day, come January. G-Box would definitely earn a lot! Hah. ;-) Before heading home, Nicole tried to drive Pey's car. She was really funny! Hah. Thanks to Pey for driving me home. Though I've given him wrong directions, eh he didn't get mad at me naman. Haha. Thanks! Gawd. I'm loving Lifehouse bigtime! Their songs are just so great! Lalang. Just wanna share. Haha. ;-) Oh, before I forget, another highlight for this day is that Kate and I reconciled already! Yey! ;-) After 2 weeks of not talking to each other, we've finally patched things up. Thanks to my RLE, especially to the boys, for really exerting so much effort to reconcile us. Super thanks! ;-) I've realized that things won't be so complicated if only there's an open communication. What happened to Kate and I was just a little misunderstanding which led to something deeper. I regret not talking about the problem with her before things got worse, but then again, everything happens for a reason right? In fact, I consider what happened as a blessing in disguise. Why? Because I became close with my RLE mates, especially to Yna and Maricar. Yna and I were not that close before, and when this happened, I realized that there's more to her than what meets the eye. She taught me a lot of things, like having an open mind and a forgiving heart. Thanks to Yna! She's my angel. ;-) Maricar has also been an angel to me. I remember the time when we were camwhoring at the catwalk, and then I saw Chris, then something bad happened between Chris and I, and she and suki [Kat] saw me and really gave me comfort thru their warm hugs and Kat's hanky. I really appreciate their effort. I'll never forget that. Love you both! ;-)
Moving on, before going to the Paskuhan, Chai and I went to the Salon infront of the school to have my eyebrows done. I must admit napabayaan ko na eyebrows ko because of too much stress in school. Hah. So I did what I had to do. Then we headed to the Main Building where the fireworks display was seen best. Well, compared to the view outside the school. Haha. ;-) I was so glad that I've finally seen the fireworks display with just 1 minute late. Last year kasi, Ria, Chris and I were late for about 3 minutes. Haha. The fireworks display was just so beautiful. Although it wasn't as beautiful as last year's, eh pwede na din naman. Maganda parin. ;-) There were a lot of people who came. The saying, "di mahulugang karayom" is very applicable for this matter. Nalula ako. As in. Tinopak pa yung Globe, kaya mas lalo akong nabwiset. Tsk. Sending messages was just so difficult. Plus the fact that I can't even call. Argh. I got teary-eyed na nga because I wasn't able to have a clear conversation with "him." Ria and I planned pa nga that we would go home na after dinner, since both of us were pissed off already. She lost her digi cam case and her hunny wasn't there to enjoy the moment with her, and I couldn't find "him." Dammit. Good thing Nicole came to the rescue. She made the impossible possible. I finally saw him, and lucky me, I was able to spend some time with him. Although there were bad things that happened, yung good things parin yung nanginbabaw. I made a mistake, again, but I was able to do something about it. Whooh. Thank God. I just couldn't afford to make a mistake again, and lose him for the nth time. I can't handle that anymore. I lost him so many times already, and I couldn't bear losing him again. It was a night to remember. Although I went home a bit early, okay lang din. Worth it, baby. ;-)
Just when I thought that everything's already fine, here comes another misunderstanding. I just can't understand why he didn't mention that he's gonna go to EK right after their Xmas party yestderday. I've waited for his reply, and I received nothing. So I just slept. When I woke up, I've received a couple of text messages from him. Ni hindi ko pa malalaman na nag EK sila kung di ko pa tinanong. Ano ba naman yan. Tsk. He was with his classmates naman diba, and it's way too impossible that none of them brought a cellphone. His excuse of losing batt wasn't valid. Well, atleast for me. Haay. Andaming paraan. Nakakafrustrate.
I just hope that people will learn how to be sensitive when they have to. I am doing my part. I am doing what I ought to do. And I need him to do what he has to do. Dammit. It's always like this. If it's not him who's hurt, it's me. And if it's not me who's hurt, it's him. Argh. Why just can't both of us be happy at the SAME time with EACH OTHER. Was i overreacting? Or was it really his fault? Dammit.
Life is not fair. Who said it is anyway? It never was and never will be. *Sob*
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