I just want to share with you one of the pieces we've studied in Literature. This one's really nice. ;-) It's quite deep and it's very moving. ;-)

On Love - Kahlil Gibran

When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, "I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

+ karen +

NO CLASSES TOMORROW!! ;-)

Umiral nanaman ang pagkatamad ko. Nang malaman kong walang pasok bukas, hindi ko na tinapos yung kailangang ipasa bukas sa pharma. Haha. Ewan ko ba. Nakakatamad talaga. Umuulan pa. Ang sarap matulog. Kumain. Mag relax. Mag muni-muni. Tumulala. Manuod ng TV. Makinig sa iPod. Magtext ng sandamakmak. Mag blog. Mag multiply. Mag friendster. Haha. Na-miss ko talaga and mamuhay ng ganito. Haha. Wala lang.

Nagiging iritable nanaman ako. Hay. PMS ba ito? Haha.

Lumalakas nako kumain. Salamat. Haha. Napapansin kong marami nakong nauubos na kanin. Salamat talaga. Dati-rati, hanggang kalahating kanin lang ang nakakaya ko, ngayon, aba, grabe na. Haha. Nakakaimpluwensiya talaga ang mga nakakasama mo sa hapag-kainan. Haha. Mas ganado akong kumain ngayon kesa dati. Seryoso. Haha. Salamat sa mga taong nag impluwensya sakin. Salamat talaga.

Nag-yYM ako ngayon. Napatunayan kong "season of breakup" talaga. Natuklasan kong may naghiwalay nanamang magkasintahan. Hay nako talaga. Ganito ba talaga?? Nakakasawa na. Mga kakilala ko pa. Mga malalapit sa akin. Hay. Nakakalungkot. Nakakadismaya. Sinu-sino na ang mga susunod? Sana wala na. Tama na mga hiwalayan. Tama na. Masyado ng maraming sawi sa pag-ibig ngayon.

Nagttext din ako ngayon. Masasabi kong may "constant textmates" ako. Haha. Buti nalang andyan yung mga taong nagbibigay buhay sa tulog kong telepono. Haha. Hindi ko masyadong napapansing mag-isa na talaga ako ngayon. Kasi andyan pa mga taong nakakaalala sa akin. Alam niyo na kung sinu-sino kayo, SALAMAT talaga. Salamat din sa pagbibigay ng mga ideya kung ano ba dapat kong gawin ngayon. Gusto ko man maniwala sa inyo, di ko parin kayang gawin yan ngayon. Kasi may tiwala parin ako sa kanya at sa mga sinasabi niya sakin. Kaya pasensya na talaga kung napaka tigas ng ulo ko nanaman. Haha.

Ang lamig ng panahaon ngayon. Pati ibang tao, napakalamig din. Ewan ko ba. Sadyang ganito talaga ang buhay. Haha. Masarap din balikan ang mga masasaya at mapapait na mga alaala pag ganito ang panahon. Para bang makapag-iisip ka talaga ng maayos. Maiisip mo ang mga nagawa mo para sa taong mahal mo. Mga planong hindi natuloy. Mga surpresang hindi man lang nagawa. Mga gustong sabihin na hindi na nasabi dahil wala ng oras o huli na ang lahat. Mga gustong gawin pero hindi na umabot. Mga pagkukulang mo sa taong mahal mo. Bakit ganito? Lahat ata pagsisisi. Naisip ko din na dapat isipin din natin ang mga masasayang parte ng pag-iibigan. Hindi lang yung mga malulungkot. Nakakataba ng puso pag naaala kong nagawa niya ang lahat ng yun para sa akin. Nadama ko talaga ang pagmamahal niya. Pero ewan ko ba sakin. Bakit ako naging ganon sakanya. Pero nga, gaya ng sabi ng aking butihing kaibigang si Clarabelle, "it takes two to tango." May mga pagkukulang din siya. May mga pagkakamali. May mga kalokohan. Pero naisip ko, bakit lahat ng yun pinalampas ko? Tapos yung ako na, para bang napakasama ko ng tao. Hay. Napaka emosyonal ko na ata. Hindi ko lang talaga mapigilan ang aking sarili na maging ganito paminsan-minsan. madalas. parati. Haha. At pansin niyo ba, Tagalog to? Haha. Wala lang. Mas masarap kasi sabihin ang mga nararamdam ko pag Tagalog. Haha. Yun lang.

Gusto kong tanggalin sa kalendaryo ang Hunyo 9. Wala lang. Gusto ko lang sabihin.

Hanggang sa muli!

+ karen +

I want to watch this!!! ;-) It interests me. Really. Title pa lang. Haha. ;-) Click the URL below for a movie review.

http://www.movie-reviews.colossus.net/movies/m/my_super.html

+ karen +

I really like this video. It's a One Tree Hill video. It's perfect. Watch it for yourself. You might like it too. ;-) I also have another One Tree Hill video in my friendster, however, it's focus is on Brooke and Lucas only. ;-)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YWXEsw--yL4

Finally, our monthly examination week is over. I almost got sick because of too much stress. Haha. It was a HELL week. Our tests were pretty much of a guessing game. Well, for me ha. The most difficult exam I took was LITERATURE. It was really hard. Sumakit ulo't likod ko, nagkasinat, nadisamaya, nawindang, natulala, nainis at nalungkot pagkatapos ng exam. Yun lang naman ang epekto nun. Yun lang. Haha. PHARMACOLOGY was also difficult. There were a lot of numbers which I was not sure of. Kahit na may choices, mahirap parin manghula! Haha. Kakaiba. Para bang lahat ng choices, tama. Argh. And the rest? They were difficult too. Hay nako talaga. Bahala na si Superman. Haha.

Yesterday, my one nine friends and I went to the SM Mall of Asia to relax and unwind. I had SO much fun! Although I felt a little bit incomplete since Chris and I would usually go out every after our exams. Oh well. Life must go on. He has a pre-planned business anyway, so.. wala lang.. kanya kanya na talaga siguro ngayon. Nakakalungkot lang isipin paminsan. madalas. parati.

You can view our pictures.

Moving on, I had my first Malta Mission awhile ago. I REALLY had fun! Ria, Ron and I did all the dispensing of drugs. Our skill on reading the doctor's penmanship was enhanced. Haha. [Why do most doctors have a very bad handwriting? I wonder why. They give us too much burden. Don't they? Haha.] While Keshia and Chrisie [a med. student] did all the writing. It was my first medical mission wherein I didn't do any VS taking. Asenso. Haha. ;-)

You can view our pictures.

Well, as you can see, I have changed my layout. ;-) I really like the color combination. I've changed my layout in my Multiply too. I have all the time today kasi eh. Kaya yun.

Oh btw, I just want to share with you what I just read in Gracey's blog. I can totally relate with this one. Please read.

"you might be getting the wrong reason why i still hang around. don't get me wrong, i'm here not to beg for your love and attention because i myself know that it's now impossible to happen. i'm here because if it's impossible for you to love me back, the least that i can do for myself is to continue loving you. you don't have to understand that i'm doing this for myself and not for you and definitely not for anybody else.. "

-Cathrine Jane Dequito

'til then. ;-)

+ karen +

" If pain must come, may it come quickly because I have a life to live and I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to make a choice, may he make it now. Then I will either wait for him or forget him. Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering. " --Paulo Coelho

Enough said.

+ karen +

It pains to pretend I don't know what he's doing.

Sh*t. Magising kana, karen..


I'm beginning to HATE him. Kaya sige.. test my patience pa.


+ karen +

I'm at the library now. I'm wit Ria. She's doing some research, and I, obviously, am busy blogging. Haha! I thought about Lari, so I thought about writing something about what had happened last Saturday. So here it goes..

June 8, 2006

It was raining. Lari was in the hospital. Had to visit her, but it was raining REALLY hard. My mom told me not to go to Makati anymore, since she was too afraid that I won't be able to go home early because of the rain and heavy traffic, I suppose, and she was also afraid of me getting sick.Yet, I still went to UST McDo to meet Micah, since we decided to go to Makati Med together. On my way to the said fast food chain, I saw Gracey and Charm! I became happy and excited, but only at that moment. While I was waiting for Micah to finish her meal, a stranger accidentally spilled his cup of Coke on my back, including my hair. Yes, including my hair! I was so pissed off! I kind of yelled at the man who did the damage. I was like, "Oh my God!!!" And then, he offered me some table napkins, and yet I acted ungratefully, thinking it was not enough. It would never be enough. Even the manager handed me the same thing, and that really made me more angry, like hello?! Kaya kaya ng tissue paper yan?! Eh basang basa nga ako! Malagkit lagkit pa noh! And to think may pupuntahan pako! Pano na yan?! So I told Micah that I had to go home to bathe myself and that I told her that I don't want to go to the hospital anymore. My agony did not end there. On my way to the Dapitan gate, I've noticed that baha na! Grr talaga! I had to apply my iwas-sa-tubig baha and kapit dito, kapit doon skills. It was really a misery! But then, when I arrived home, I kind of regret being so harsh to that man. I mean, it was just an accident, and yet I over reacted. Hay. This experience of mine is totally far from what I've anticipated, yet I consider this as a blessing in disguise. Maybe there could have been more not-so-good scenarios if I still pushed through that lakad.

And then, I decided to study. Yet, as always, I fell asleep! When I woke up, my sister handed me an "all flip flops" paper bag! Obviously, it was a pair of Havaianas. Much to my surprise, it was the pair of Havs I've been eyeing on for the past couple of months, kaya lang la nako money and la na din stock pagbalik ko. I was SUPER happy! Imagine, I've forced myself to think that those Havs aren't meant for me, since I can't have it, but now, I actually have them! Yipee! I felt so guilty pa kasi nung morning, nasungitan ko pa si Ate Trina. She's really sweet and thoughtful talaga!

So that ends my entry. Until next time. ;-)

+ karen +

this time what I want is you

there is no one else

who can take your place

this time you burn me with your eyes

you see past all the lies

you take it all away

I've seen it all

and it's never enough

it keeps leaving me needing you

- Take Me away --Lifehouse

w-a-i-t-i-n-g...

+ karen +

I am hanging on every word you say

And even if you don't want to speak tonight

That's alright, alright with me

'Cause I want nothing more than to sit

Outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing

Is where I want to be

- Breathing -- Lifehouse

I just love LIFEHOUSE. ;-) Song ko yan kay superchris.. ;-)

+ karen +