Thank you, Lord!!! :)

Karen M. Sison, RN

FINALLY!

ILOVEYOU,LORD!

Xoxo,
Karen

Tick Tock

Waiting.

It's really making me anxious. Ugh. I don't like this feeling.

I hope it's gonna be worth all the wait. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Dear God, help me.

Xoxo,

Karen

Rainy Day

My friends and I were supposed to go to Trinoma today but we had to reschedule it due to the rain.

I slept for like 15 hours. The weather's just perfect to laze around. I love the cool breeze and the sound of the pouring rain. If it wasn't for my sister waking me up, I would have loved to sleep more.

We're probably gonna watch Dark Knight tomorrow. Yay! Hope to see more of 4-9 this time. I'm not really sure if I'll be seeing him tomorrow. I have this feeling that we aren't as close as before anymore. It's like there's a line drawn between us now. Am I just paranoid or what? Sigh. I just hope that our friendship won't go to waste. I mean, I love being friends with him. He's like one of my closest boy friends ever. He really matters to me more than anyone could ever imagine. Oh well.

4 days to go until the judgment day. Oh my goodness. Just the though of it makes my heart beat so fast and my bowel sounds become hyperactive. No kidding. It makes me wanna sit still and reflect. I need your help, Lord.

Xoxo,

Karen

Alarm Clock

You asked me to wake you up at 2:30am.

I asked you why/what for but you didn't reply.

Just so you know, I'm still wide awake now.

Time check: 3:30am.

I just want to say that I did try calling you up 5x...

...but the line was busy.

Can't help but think.

Analyze.

Overanalyze.

I guess it's really not meant to be.

Oh well.

Tata!

Xoxo,
Karen

The Aftermath

Renz's happy BEERday was a blast! Had so much fun! The food (c/o Mang Tootz) was delicious. Thanks, Larry, for the chocolate fondue! I loved it! It was my favorite actually. :) There were a lot of drinks. The music was cool. The people were just all happy and up to something really fun. It was one helluva night!!! :)

I was kind of disappointed though to see someone I never expected to see there. I mean, it was really an awkward situation. We had an issue for about a month ago, and we haven't settled things formally yet. But thanks to gran matador, for it gave me the courage to face her. It was really surprising because when she was about to leave, I appoached her, hugged her, and apologized sincerely. I was a little dizzy that time, but I remember her saying that it's okay. What I failed to hear was her "I'm sorry too." It could've been better if she also apologized for what she did to me. Besides, it takes two to tango, right? She was at fault too. Grr. But I don't regret saying sorry to her though because I feel lighter now, and that's what matters. I don't want to feel annoyed anymore. I just want peace, with anyone and anything for that matter.

Anyway, listening to iPod with him has always been kilig. *smiles* It makes me love the songs which I used to not like just because he listens to them. I remember telling him to download the songs of Boyce Avenue, but he said he wasn't interested, and so I dropped the issue already. Much to my surprise, when he was right beside me that night, he handed me the earphone and played a song. It was a song by Boyce Avenue. I must admit that he really made my heart melt. He said he won't download it, but he did. I know it may not be a big deal for some, but for me it's something worth to be appreciated for. Lying down in bed with just one pillow supporting our heads while playing the music we both like made the atmosphere even more heaven-ish. Grr. I hate how much he makes me feel really weak inside. Too bad he got drunk too early, that's why I wasn't able to feel his presence that much. *sigh* Nevertheless, it was all good since I was able to take care of him, in my own little way. He deserved to be taken cared of, because he took care of me when I was drunk before. It was my chance of paying him back. :)

I love overnight parties! Renz's party is, most likely, the most memorable party I've ever attended because aside from the fact that there were a lot of people who came (a total of 22) and a lot of people got wasted, including the person who dazzles me, who has been constantly telling me that he never gets drunk, the boyfriends of my friends came over early in the morning to take their girlfriends home. There could have been a fight, if it wasn't prevented. Whew. Yes, the party was really fab but I never imagined it would turn out that way--outsiders getting involved with my friends.

Another highlight of the night was seeing my friends making out, with my other friends watching them. I know it's not something I should dwell on too much, since they are both of legal age, single, and it's a free country so they can do whatever they want, but I just couldn't believe my eyes! It was really a shocking experience for me. It was my first time to witness such a scene. I guess I should be mature enough to accept the fact that such a thing really happens in real life, and I should deal with it.

I'm so looking forward to sharing more wonderful memories with my friends. I'm really glad that even if we're no longer classmates, we stil managed to take some time off, to get together again, and to booze the night away! Sa uulitin, definitely!!! :)

Pictures I: http://kareneenuh.multiply.com/photos/album/280/-_Happy_BEERday_Renz_-_1112.07.08

Pictures II: http://kareneenuh.multiply.com/photos/album/281/-_Friday_Night_-

Xoxo,

Karen

Thursday

Chai and I went to St. Jude at around 11am. Went home. Watched Game KNB?, Wowowee, Ligaw na Bulaklak (Yes, I am super enjoying that show! HAHA It's getting more and more intense I should say!), and then I fell asleep in the sofa. It has always been like this since my vacation started. I've always loved siestas. Even if I was still going to school, lectures after lunch would always make me feel sleepy. I even take having lunch for granted, just so I can use my 1-hour-lunch break to sleep/laze around. I guess that explains my figure. HAHA.

I went online, as usual. I've said to myself that I won't stalk anymore. I wanted to believe that what I don't know won't hurt me, but like what Paulo Coelho said, "not knowing is the worst kind of feeling." Besides, stalking once in awhile won't kill. *wink* And so I did my usual "stalking." Much to my surprise, a simple "hun" made me laugh. Naman, originality pwede? HAHA. Doesn't he feel awkward when his girl calls him hun? I mean, duh, that was one of our terms of endearment. It just sounds so crazy. Oh c'mon!!! And this other boy in my past, a highschool sweetheart I should say, is still not over his exgirlfriend. Oh well, that's too bad. It's just an opinion though. His comments on his exgirlfriend's site just made me think so.

On a higher note, a close friend made me happy today. What's new? He always makes my day. I always have a good laugh and a bright smile whenever I talk to him, or when we're just together, or even just the thought of him. My family and friends would even notice it. They say that I am too obvious that I like him. It shows daw. Golly. This is such a crazy/beautiful feeling. I hate it sometimes though because it makes me too vunerable. Grr. I feel like I'm still in highschool. You know, the peak stage wherein you get so attracted to an opposite sex, and it's all up to you if you nurse the feeling, let it grow, let it show, let your emotions get the better of you, or just don't do anything at all. But this time, it's a little more complicated. I must keep in mind that there's a line I shouldn't cross until the right time comes. So now, it's best to just ignore the feeling and stay as friends. *sigh*

Anyway, what happened last night was just so unexpected. A friend asked me a question which obviously made me burst into laughter. Until now, I couldn't believe that he actually asked me that certain question. It's just so funny, and annoying at the same time. Too bad, I've kind of liked him pa naman until last night. I must admit that he's physically attractive (who am I to resist his good looks and charm?), musically inclined (pogi points indeed!), has good leadership skills (NCBS officer ba naman), and into sports (wow! What more can I ask for?). He's totally an IT boy, but too bad, his question made me forget all the good traits he possesses. Hmm. I'm being a perfectionist once again. Grr. Well, it's never too let for him to redeem himself. Oh c'mon. Make me like you once more. *laughs*

Pardon the flight of ideas. :) It's just that there are a lot of things I want to say but I'm just having a hard time organizing my thoughts now. They are all over my head, and it makes me go crazy thinking about these stuffs all at the same time! HAHA ;p

And oh, before I forget, tomorrow is the big night. Looks like there are a lot of people coming but still it ain't enough because who I want to see and be with on that special night won't probably make it. Boohoo. Nevertheless, I hope the party turns out fab! What shall I wear? Dress? Top + shorts/skirt/pants? Still undecided. I don't want to look under/overdressed naman diba? HAHA ;p'Til then! Tata!

Xoxo,
Karen

S/p DT

DT stands for Delaying Tactics. We use this term whenever we feel like doing something else rather than focusing or finishing an important agenda. We so love DTs! Basta DT, game kami! HAHA ;p

Janelle, Pey, Kate, Chino and I went to Robinson's Place, Midtown wing, to go see a movie and eat. For a change. We ate at Wham! Burgers, accompanied Pey at Sanfo treats for he wanted to buy something for AP, and then we watched Hancock already. Although Pey informed us about how the movie's going to end (I know, right? He's such a spoiler! HAHA), we still chose to watch it anyway. In return, I had to tell him the twist of Wanted because he hasn't seen that movie yet. HAHA ;p Truce?

Personally, it wasn't really a great movie. I think it's overrated. The effects were amazing, but the story, in terms of substance, was lesser as I've expected it to be. The latter part of the movie was just so predictable. Nevertheless, it was worth our P130 bucks.

It was my second time to watch a movie at Midtown. The first time was watching Sakal, Sakali, Saklolo with my mom. The moviehouse is just so nice. It has comfy seats, good sound system, and it doesn't smell bad like the other moviehouses I've been to! HAHA ;p But this time, I was kind of disappointed because Cinema 1 of Midtown is smaller. There are only 7 rows, having 20 seats per row, more or less. I really felt dizzy and nauseated since the screen was too close. So I had to close my eyes once in awhile just so the feeling will be lessened, if not totally eradicated. Err.

Overall, our DT today was a fruitful one. I super missed my RLE mates to bits! That's why I really savored our moment together. It could have been more fun if we were complete though -- the 12 of us -- but I guess that's just not possible, atleast at the moment.

'Til next time! (Yay! I'll be seeing them once again this Friday! Happy Birthday, Renz!!! Another night of booze!)

For more pictures: http://kareneenuh.multiply.com/photos/album/279/-_Power_of_5_-_09.07.08_

Xoxo,
Karen

Pfft

Five entires for a day? Woah. I am such a bum.

I was supposed to go to the NBI with a friend today. Have to process my fingerprint card and get an NBI clearance for my NCLEX application. I was all set when she told me that she was still in bed, lazing around. Grr. I really hate last-minute-backouts. "I'm sorry" is getting old. Ohwell. I'm pissed off, which I think is just a natural reaction, but since she's one of my close friends, I just can't afford to get mad at her or to stay pissed off for too long.

Anyway, my RLE mates and I decided to go to the movies later. We're going to watch Hancock, most definitely. I just can't wait! I've seen the trailer and it seems really interesting. Yay! But Pey had seen it already. Boohoo. Will he watch it again with us? I have yet to find out. (But I'm really hoping he will since there are no other movies I'd want to watch other than Hancock. Waa.) Tata!

Xoxo,
Karen

Infatuation

They say that a stolen glance is the oldest trick we know, yet it's definitely the most obvious sign that you like that person.

Could this be true?

Well then, I'M GUILTY. :) :) :)

Xoxo,Karen

On Eyeglasses

I have to wear my eyeglasses. Almost all the time. Dammit. It's driving me crazyyy.

Xoxo,
Karen

How's My Heart Lately?

That's probably an intriguing question my friends would want to know about. Good thing I already have an LJ because my friends don't know about this yet, so I can go on and on with this without thinking about what would people say.

Well, it's still beating, obviously, otherwise I'll be dead now... but not for him anymore. Yes, you've read it right. Not anymore. Finally.

I do believe that people change, and so do our feelings. I loved him with all my heart, no doubt about it, my family and friends can surely attest to that, but I guess time just takes it all away.

I must admit that it wasn't easy seeing him with his new girlfriend every effing day in school. Not to mention, the three of us in the same room for 2 months! It was crazy. Plus the fact that we had an examination to take. Just imagine how pressured I was and how much this love issue had been boggling my mind and troubling my heart, all happening simultaneously. What a way to be desensitized indeed. I've dealt everyday showing the least hint of angst, jealousy, remorse towards them. It was a difficult situation I had to face. But as time passed by, it became easier to manage. Just by the thought of him, giving me up for another girl, just made it a lot easier, actually. And of course, with my loving family and good friends around, the weight I had to carry was a lot lighter as I've imagined it to be, and I love and thank them for that.

People come and go, but the ones who truly love you will never leave you. Lesson learned.

Xoxo,Karen