I woke up a little early today. My mum woke me up with a hug and a kiss. How sweet. =D Checked the grades on the net. again. Cant get over. haha. But then, im contented na with my grades. Well, I really should be. hehe. Haay. Super early. Mejo sleepy pa ko. What's new? Im always sleepy. Over na talaga to. Anyway, I've read this survey from Audrey. I felt like answering it eh. *What's with the surveys? hehe. Just answered one yesterday. haha. boredom kills. *

1)Are you afraid of being single?

---> no. because im still young.

2) What do you do when you can't sleep?

---> surf the net slash listen to mp3 slash text my friends.

d3) How far would you go to get somethingyou really want?

---> hmm. depends.

4) What time is it right now?

--->10.20 am

5) Do you go for personality or Looks?

---> personality. like what audrey said, bonus nalang ang looks. true true.

6) What's your fave flavor of Kool-Aid?

---> the red one. is it strawberry? hehe.

7) What makes you *Really* happy?

---> loving and being loved.

8) Are you a negative person?

---> sometimes. haha.

9) In your opinion, Do you think premarital sex is wrong?

---> yes. because i believe that you should only engage to sex once your married.

10) Do you believe in 'Reincarnation'?

---> no.

11) What's your fave online news site?

---> philstar.com

12) Which Celebrity do you think you most resemble?

--->jennifer love hewitt. haha. as if. shes my idol. i adore her. especially before when she wasnt too skinny.

13) What do you think the meaning of life is?

---> life is the greatest gift from God. i agree with audrey.

14) Fave color?

---> colors. pink, purple and blue. and apple green.

15) Which Instant Messaging programs do you use?

---> ym.

16) Are you good with computers?

---> not that good. theres still room for improvement. haha.

17) How many kids do you want when you grow up?

---> 4. (2 boys and 2 girls.)

19) What type of music can you NOT stand?

---> super rock. hehe.

20) Do you have a job?

---> none. still studying.

21) If you had to rate yourself on a scale of 1 - 10..

---> 8. i love 8. haha.

22) What size of shoe do you wear?

---> 7 slash 8

23) What are your hobbies?

---> watching my fave tv series, watching movies, singing (haha. db hunny bunny?), text, SLEEP.

24) What was the last thing you downloaded?

---> song by dishwalla.

25) Last thing you ate?

---> chicken salad.

26) Last thing you drank?

---> h2o.

27) What do you think is the most stupid law?

---> cant think of any right now. but i think, none. because i think that we have good laws naman, however, di okay yung pag implement ng laws natin. now thats the problem.

28) How many people are on your buddylist?

---> 506.

29) What site do you go to most?

---> friendster. my blog. my multiply.

30) Do you like seafood?

---> yes. especially crabs and shrimps. and oh, baked tahong. yumyum. omg. im starving.

31) What is your fave place to hAng out at?

---> hmm. church? especially pag troubled.

32) Worst insult you ever heard about yourself?

---> bitch? hehe.

33) Best compliment you've received from someone?

---> im hot DAW. haha. guy pa nagsabi. hehe. funny.

34) Are you picky?

---> sometimes.

35) Place you go to get your hair cut?

---> piandre. got my hair cut at fix near ust, and it sucked. sorry to say.

36) Perfect place to go on your first date with someone?

---> the beach. so romantic. aaw.

37) What age is considered old?

---> 20.

38) Have you met any celebrities?

---> yes.

39) Do you get along better with men or women?

---> women.

40) What is the best quality about you?

---> im committed.

Nax. Hehe. It was really fun answering these kinds of survey. It really kills time. haha. And you'd get to think about various stuffs. See, premarital sex, laws governing our country, life, values, etc. Coolness. so there. im signing off. gotta eat my late breakfast na. Oh btw, I would just like to share what my close friend, Clara, wants us to do on and for her birthday:

Message from Clarabelle: 27.10.2005 10.18pm

guys! Malapit na bday ko.. And meron aku wish.. Bday gft nyo nlng s kin.. Please buy 1 meal then gve t 2 1 street child or any street person. Or f u dnt wnt 2 gve fud, pwde rin old clothes or blanket. Bsta smethng. Un lng sana pagbgyn nyo ko s bday wish ko. Hehe Thanks. :) love you guys ;)

Aaaw. very Mother Theresa. I love you clarabelle. You have a really really golden heart. I wish everyone would be as nice as you. Mwah. Advance happy bday!

karen misses clarabelle

+ karen +

It's 10:33pm on my celly. Just checked my grades on the net. So tragic. My average is only 1.8. argh! I so hate it. Its kinda close na to 1.75. I didn't make it. :( How sad!! Argh!!!! F*ck. :( Grabe. I was so surprised to see my grade in NSTP. I got 1.0! Haha! So funny!! So taas for me! Galing! Haha! Aion. I hate micro. Yun yung lowest ko. because of that, goodbye 1.75 na. Argh. Haay. I checked the grades of chris. Ai grabe. genius. ;) galing galing ng hunny bunny ko! ;) opposites attract talaga nuh? he's so smart.. and im not. :( hehe.. paawa eh nuh? oh well. maybe its not for me. go second sem nalang. asa. haha. ;) need to study harder. and i really mean harder. too bad for me talga. haay. poor karen. 'til then. (grabe..three posts in one day. haha. bibong bata. )

+ karen +

So here's a survey from Raydon. I answered it out of boreedom. And it seemed really interesting. Haha. Here it goes..

1.what made you happy this week?
>> being "us" again. (don't get me wrong with the "us".. its no big deal.)

2.what made you sad this week?
>> i almost let go of him.

3.are you contented with your life?
>> i should be. but, no.

4.has someone made u happy lately?
>> yeah. of course. he always does.

5.what do you plan to do to her/him?
>> hug him tight. haha. (hope he's not reading this. yikes.)

6.what are you feeling at the moment?
>> a little sleepy. (its almost 1am!)

7.what/who made you feel that way?
>> duh?

8.do you laugh??
>> yeah. a lot.

9.have you ever been to a point in your life that
made you feel really bad?
>> yeah.

10. the last movie you watched?
>> hmm. lord of war.

11. With whom?
>> chris.

12. the last song you heard?
>> it's still playing on my comp actually. everything by lifehouse.

13. the last thing you bought?
>> i actually paid for a photocopy. haha.

16. the last thing you heard from your parents?
>> sino yung tinitingnan nio jan?

17. the last thing you said to your parent(s)?
>> wala lang.

18. the last thing you said to one of your friends
>> i actually asked a question. cnu2x na yung pupunta sa eastwood?

19. the last thing you read?
>> hmm. survey from raydon. (this is the survey.haha.)

20. the last person you called?
>> called? hmm. mara.

21. the last person who called you?
>> tsino slash some other guy

22. the last person you msg?
>> hmm. mima?

23. the last person who msg you?
>> micah?

24. the last person who gave you a testimonial?
>> mima. my bestfriend.

25. the last person who txted you?
>> razeille.

26. the last person you're with?
>> my sister?

27. the last person you kissed hello/goodbye?
>> hmm. haha.

28. the last person who kissed you hello/goodbye?
>> alexis. it was a flying kiss. haha.

29. the last person you think of before going to
bed?
>> who else? chris.(bakit aga mo matulog?!haha.)

30. the last thing you're going to do before going
to sleep?
>> pray.

+ karen +

Today is a normal day. Nothing really special happened today. Well, aside from Chris and I na in good terms again. I woke up at 9am only to read the messages from Chris. I went back to sleep after. And then, as soon as I woke up, I ate lunch. Waa. Yummy. ;) After that, I watched Desperate Housewives and One Tree Hill. Addict na ata ako sa mga TV series na yun. Err. I so hate it when I wanna watch the entire season in one sitting, but I cant because I have to do some stuff. Err. Anyway, After viewing them, I took a nap while listening to Hale. Oh my. Champ's voice is really hot. Waa. Hehe. What else? Aaah. I've changed my song in my blog. It is entitled Everything by Lifehouse. I really like this song because I can remember Clark Kent and Lana Lang. Yes, Smallville. Oh my. Buti nalang di nako masyadong attached dun. Atleast, nabawasan yung mga winawatch ko. Whew. haha. So there, I've changed my tagboard as well. Moving on, I wanna share with you some of the text messages in my inbox: (different types of messages..)

Inspirational:

There was a couple who doesnt believe in God. The atheist couple had a 5-year-old daughter who never knew about Jesus. One day, the couple had a quarrel. The husband shot his wife. After this, he killed himself. The daughter saw all of it. The next morning, the girl was sent to a foster family. It so happened that they were Christians. They brought the girl to the church. In the Sunday school, the teacher held a picture of Jesus and asked, "do you know Him?" the girl replied, "of course I do. He was the one who hugged mewhen my parents died."

Something to think about:

Why are cupids baby angels? that is to remind us that love never grows old.

Why is cupid's arrow directed to the heart? to remind us that true love hurts.

Ouch quote:

I have come to realize that destiny can hurt a person as much as it can bless them and i find myself wondering why out of all the people I could have loved, I had to fall for someone destined to be taken away from me.

Sayang quote:

Its so sad when you cant have the things that would make you complete, and its even more sad when you realize that it was already at your grip but you just let it slip off your hands.

Super benta:

Buntis sinaksak, baby nakailag. -> so funny!! I can imagine the baby inside the woman's womb! Hillarious!

Since my mum didnt allow me to go to Bulacan with my friends, Ive thought of something else to do. GIMIK. at Sat night. Basement *again* perhaps? Hmm! Ill think about it. Now, here's the lyrics of Everything. Its really beautiful. Go go, read it!

Everything - Lifehouse

find me here

speak to me

i want to feel you

i need to hear you

you are the light

that is leading me

to the place where

i find peace again

you are the strength

that keeps me walking

you are the hope

that keeps me trusting

you are the life to my soul

you are my purpose

you are everything

and how can i

stand here with you

and not be moved by you

would you tell me

how could it be

any better than this

you calm the storms

you give me rest

you hold me in your hands

you won't let me fall

you still my heart

and you take my breath away

would you take me in

would you take me deeper now

'cause you're all i want

you are all i need

you are everything

everything

+ karen +

It’s almost 1am, and I still can’t get over with all of the things that happened last night and a while ago. So what happened last night? Hmm.. I’ve talked to someone who I haven’t talked to for a couple of years na on the phone. At first, I felt bitterness, anger, frustration, etc. But then, when we were done talking, I have finally realized that being bitter won’t do me any good, so I’ve finally thought of leaving the past behind, and just go on with life. Moving on, this day is nice slash bad day for me. I must admit this day didn’t turn out the way I thought it would be. First, I thought that the whole enrollment process would be quick, like what would it usually be for the past three sems. The line was so long. Got tired quickly. The computers were all down, and we had to wait until 2pm. We had nowhere else to go, but home, so we waited nalang until 1pm since we weren’t hungry pa at that time. Fortunately, the people there let the students enter the gym before 1pm. We all had our own strategies. And fortunately, ours did work. It was so funny! Thanks to Alexis and Ria for taking the risk. Haha. So there, we were already inside the gym. The line for the pe was so long. It took us about 30 to 45 minutes before we were finally accommodated. So the next not-so-good-thing enters. Chris and I won’t be in the same pe class. Argh. We chose table tennis, however, my schedule is on Wednesday, while his schedule is on Friday. Too bad. Third, my back and my legs were aching for a couple of hours in the gym, because of falling in line for the assessment form. F*ck. But then, it was all worth the wait, and I didn’t get bored. Why? Ofcourse I was with my hunny. Why would I be bored? ;) Well, speaking of my hunny, the fourth not-so-good-thing that happened was… I almost lost him. :( good thing we patched things up before this day has ended. I would like to thank Mega for the support you’ve given me. Your messages have indeed inspired me to hold on. I love you Meggy!

Messages from Mega:
- Hi Karen! Why are you sad? Ano nangyari?
- Bakit again? Ano ba talaga intentions niyang chris erwin nay an?? Feeling ba niya lokohan lang kayo! Nakakaasar siya ha! Paasa! Or hindi naman kaya hes just finding the right time?! Comfort Karen.
- So anong status niyo ngayon?(..)Hes hurting you too much. He does not have the right to hurt you. Loveyou Karen!!
- (..)Siya na ba talaga? If he is, be patient(..)
- Ay nako Karen, signs can be very misleading at times. Pag feel mo na siya na talaga, wag mo na pakawalan(..)! I want you to be happy(..)
- Hahaha! Naku, shut up na ba ako? Baka ano pa mangyari. Hehehe!(..)
- Hahaha! I hope maging okay na kayo!! Keep loving!! I love you Karen! Balitaan mo nalng ako if(..) or pag inaaway ka niya.

* the "(..)” are kinda personal. Hehe. So its between the two of us nalang. Hehe.*

Thanks to Mega again. She enlightened me. ;)

I almost cried. Almost lang cause Ive become a little numb na cause these kind of things happen to us most of the time, so parang sanay na ko. :( But then, before the day ended, we were back to normal..well, almost.

And the last, but not the least, my mom didnt allow me to go to Bulacan this Thursday! Unbelievable! Just so you know, I was the one who planned it. F*ck.

Anyway, as you can see, I have changed my layout again, because I was just trying to divert my attention. You know, if you dont wanna feel pain, you should divert your attention to something else. So thats what I did. And it worked. ;)

Kahit Pa - Hale
“hindi ko man hawak ang panahon maging ang ikot ng buhaybasta't ikaw at ikaw pa rin ikaw at ikaw parin..”


+ karen +

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICTOR AND APPLE! ;)

I'm surfing the net right now, while waiting for my grades to be out. Uh-oh. Have checked my grade in LTS.. and it sucked. I didn't even know I missed one of the assignments. How irresponsible can I get? Howcome I didn't know about that? Silly. Well, anyway, it's no big deal. What's important is my grade in RLE.. 9 units eh. Err. So tagal. Server's down. Tsk. I'll be going to school tomorrow. Have to enroll. Crucial nanaman ang init sa pagpila, err. Hehe. Wa poise nanaman. Hehe. I'm a little excited because I'd get to meet my friends again. We'd be able to talk and talk once again. Hehe. I wanna go to Bulacan. Hehe.. *connect?* Wala lang. Sem break's so boring. Haay. But then, it's okay, kesa naman mag aral. Hehe. I'd rather sleep than study. Anyway, speaking of sembreak.. it's not that boring anymore because I'm into Desperate Housewives lately. I was able to watch until episode 12. Gonna watch the rest of the episodes tonight, before sleeping. *It's actually a routine na.* I really really adore Gabrielle. Haha. Idol. I like the way she dresses herself and a lot more. Except ofcourse for the third party thing. It's actually a NO NO. Hehe. Oh well. What else? I missed friendster. I've never checked it since the 19th. Haha. As if super tagal eh noh? hehe ;) So there, got nothing else to say. Oh, I really really miss my crunch, Ann. She's so funny! She hasn't changed a bit. ;) I invited her to go to Bohol next year. Since we were talking about resorts, etc. She said that there are a lot of nice resorts in Batangas, however she's not sure if they're much nicer than the resorts in Bohol. *Wow. Napromote ko na talaga ang Bohol. Haha.* I miss you ANN.. ;)

+ karen +

It's 11:00pm on my watch. Ain't sleepy yet. What's new? Hehe. Woke up at 3:45 a while ago and ate my super late lunch. :) Went to my pedia at around 5pm. Had my vaccine against HepA and MMR. Ouch. But then, it didn't hurt that much, unlike when I was younger.. Pain tolerance ko super baba. Hehe. ;) Well, I guess pagtaas ng pain tolerance ko has something to do with my course. ;) Hmm.. Anyway, I'm surfing the net right now. Have nothing else to do you know. Boredom kills. Haay. Chris didn't bother to reply pa to my text. Wow. What a BESTFRIEND. Haay. Anyway, as you can hear, I have a new song here in m blog. It's Harder to Breathe by Maroon 5. I really like this song because it reminds me of one of the passinate scenes in One Tree Hill Season One. It was so kilig! I really love Lucas (Chad Michael Murray). He's so boyfriend material! ;) So there. Got nothing else to say. 'Til then. ;) Oh btw, I'd like to play badminton again.. to kill time. Hehe.. c'mon one niners last year.. let's play on the 25th.. ;)

+ karen +

Haven't been doing much lately. I've been sleeping more often. Eating chocolates more often. And crying (?) more often. Well, i can say that crying's healthy though. I get to release my pain and anger through crying. I haven't been enjoying my life right now. Too much problems. Too much hurting. Too much.. everything. A little heavy for someone as weak as I am. I know there are still a lot more reasons to be happy about.. but then, I haven't really searched for the true happiness (?). I'm bored. I'm confused. I'm broken. Haay. Well, enough about the drama. I've been dwelling too much on that since forever. Haha. While I was checking my friendster, I've noticed that someone sent me some photos.. only to find out that they came from my bestfriend, Razeille!! I really didn't know that they were taking our pictures before having our test in E-Leap!! OMG! haha! I was really surprised! Razeille talaga! ;) Here are the pics:

All i can say is... CAUGHT IN THE ACT! haha ;) Oh well. ;p

Oh btw, I had this conversation wit Mara last night, and she really really made me laugh nanaman. I really appreciate her effort on making me smile and laugh again. She's always there for me.. especially at my lowest. I don't know how I could repay her for that. In a world full of lies.. and in a world where true friends are rare.. having Mara is certainly soemthing to smile about. It's like having the best of everything. ;) I'm really happy that we became the best of friends.. ;) I ain't gonna miss her days this summer.. i love you mara! ;)

+ karen +

Sem break na! YEY! Well, even if break na.. mejo sad parin ko.. why? wala lang.. i just miss my friends.. esecially JING na F.O. na :( nwei.. my friends and I didn't know where to go after our final exam in fnp. We planned on going to the mall and watch a movie, but then.. andaming nde tumuloy! Tsk. Ria had to go to the airport. Kris had to go to Laguna na. Clarice didn't want to go na cause konti lang daw kme. Louds.. may duty. Alexis.. uwi na makati after duty. Too bad. So kme lang ni chris yung pwede. So, chris and I watched lord of war yesterday nalang. It was actually the first time that we went to the mall na kmeng two lang. Hehe. I was really surprised when my mum allowed me to go with him na kmeng two lang.. as in. Hehe. ;) Wala lang. Had a good time with him.. as always. ;) The movie was great. It was a bit morbid. Hehe.. the title says it all. Hehe. So there.. we visited the church after that. Like what we wuld usually do after class.. haay.. i miss him. October 25 ko pa ulit sya makikita.. tagal.. but then, he's worth the wait. *nax* as soon as I arrived home, I slept. Hehe. Kakapagod eh. ;)

I woke up with so many text messages. One came from my friend, princess. She said that jeff's dead. Jeff's our batchmate. Her friend..but I really don't know him. He was shot on the chest last night. He was brought to the UST hospital, DOA. Rumors say that he was making laban when someone wanted to get his celphone along lacson/espana. He's good in judo kse daw. So un. He was with his gf daw. How sad naman on the part of his gf. She actually saw her bf die. How traumatic. :( So un. Let's just pray nalang for jeff's soul.. Sayang, di pa sya umabot sa capping. :(

Exams are finally over. TIme to get some rest. We deserve it! We really really deserve it! ;)

+ karen +

We don't have a class today. Yey! And tom. Another YEY. ;) Hehe. Though we have a long weekend, I'm not pretty much enjoying, because instead of sleeping the whole day or watching season 2 of one tree hill, i have to study and do a lot of assignments and projects. FYI: I haven't even started working on my anatomy journal. Hahay. Good thing Mr. Sumile extended the due date for that. It's still something to smile about. =D Anyway, I really miss my *ny*.. It's really been a while since we had a very long conversation.. Last night was one of the very sad nights I've ever had. He ended our conversation with: "sleepy nako. gnyt." WOW. That's all I can say, WOW. Oh well, it's really a fact that people do change. It's so sad lang kse hindi for the better yung change nia eh. Oh well. I really love him, so accept nalang ako ng accept. Hahay. He's so good in breaking my heart. SO GOOD. Well, wnough about that. Raze and I talked about MYMP's concert on november last night. We also talked about buying gifts for our loved ones. Hehe. Sana talaga di tayo toxic sa december! I was also able to have a conversation with some of the JERKS. I was inviting them kse to watch the concert if they're free on that day. I really really miss JERKS na kse eh.. I just wanna spend some time with them ulit eh.. *SOB* MISS YOU JERKS.. *mwah* So there, that would be all for now.. Have to study pa kse eh.. though I know di din naman ako makakaconcentrate.. there are so many things kse na nagbbother sakin lately.. Haay.. So un. Til then.

+ karen +