Rihanna & Chris Brown in Manila

11.16.08

Yeahuh! :)

Q&A

1.Did anything brighten up your day today?
~ Yeps. His good morning message. As always :)
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2.How are you feeling at this exact moment?
~ Somnolent & bored.
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3.Are you someone who worries too often?
~ Yeps! I worry too much. And I hate it. Ugh.
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4.What is one thing that is currently bothering you?
~ People I don't like. Haha. I know, right? I should get rid of the negative vibes. But there just some people who are too annoying that just cannot be ignored.
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5.What did you do today?
~ Well, nothing productive actually. Took a bath, ate my late lunch, went online, slept for like 3 hours, and went online (again). Ugh. I feel so lazy. I don't know why.
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6.Who did you last talk to in person?
~ Ate Trina. Just a few minutes ago. She has always been one of my "outlets" whenever I feel like having a brat attack. Haha.
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7.Does anyone love you?
~ Of course. I'm sure my Mum does. Haha.

8.Is heartbreak really as bad as it sounds?
~ Yes. Too bad. Heartbreaks have never really been so easy to bear. I should know, I've had enough.
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9.How was your evening?
~ Hmm. So ordinary.
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11.Do you read your horoscopes daily?
~ Just as often as I can. Haha. I love horoscopes. They give me the thrills.
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12.Is there happiness behind your smile?
~ Of course. :)
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13.Can you control your tears?
~ I try to but I end up losing my control. Haha. I'm very sensitive. I cry at the movies, or even just when someone says something really moving.
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14.How many pictures do you have?
~ A LOT. I'm a camera magnet. Haha.
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15.Do you get a lot of comments on them?
~ Just enough, I guess.
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16.What's your current profile song?
~ Bottle It Up on Friendster. Miss Independent on Multiply. Ever the Same on Blogger.
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17.Do you ever search for old friends?
~ Yes. I'd like to be in touch with them.
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18.How do you make your money?
~ By asking for it. Haha. I'm still unemployed. *Sigh*
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19.Who was the last person you yelled at?
~ Hmm. My sister? Just because I was so effing pissed off.
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20.Does the last person to put their arms around you mean anything?
~ Hmm. Can't even remember who the last person was.
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21.Why did you last cry?
~ Because of Proposal Daisakusen (Operation Love)! It's a major tearjerker!
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22.Do you miss someone?
~ Yeps. All the time.
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23.Who do you want to see right now?
~ Ate Kathy. She's in Illinois right now.
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24.Did you hear that prostitution was the world's oldest profession?
~ I thought so. Haha. But what the heck. I don't really care.
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25.Who can you just hang out with and just talk about stuff?
~ Loads of people. Jerks & HS kada.
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26.Do you find life too difficult at times?
~ Yes. To the point that I get so emotional.
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27.Do you talk to the person who posted this before you?
~ I used to. When we had our duty together at San Martin Ward.
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28.Who was the last person you had a conversation with and what about?
~ Ate Trina. We talked about what's bothering us lately.
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29.Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?
~ Yes. *Guilty!*
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30.Is there any meaning behind your profile song?
~ I guess. The lyrics remind me of someone.
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31.Do you believe what goes around comes around?
~ Yes. I'm afraid of karma. Yikes.
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32.Are you a lover or a fighter?
~ A lover.
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33.Has anyone been disappointed in you recently?
~ Maybe. Haha.
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34.Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?
~ Both. Haha. I go for gorgeous eyes. I've always been a sucker for gorgeous eyes!
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35.Has anyone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
~ Yes. My ex. Haha.
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36.What's your favorite song by the Spice Girls?
~ Wanna be!
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37.Are you the kind of person that stands up for them?
~ Stands up for?
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38.What do you do in your spare time?
~ Drown in cyberspace. Haha.
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39.What is holding you back from going out with the person you like?
~ My conscience. Haha.
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40.What is the cutest thing a guy/girl has said to you lately?
~ "Suckao? Ahaha.. Mis u *insert name*! Gudmorning." *smiles*

Xoxo,

Karen

Addicted

I'm addicted to Proposal Daisakusen Operation Love.

I was able to finish episodes 1-5 yesterday. It really made me burst into tears! 7 episodes to go. Yay. :)

Xoxo,
Karen

Make it easy on me...

... Will you? *Sigh*

It was a long weekend.

Friday
Printed more pictures for my birthday present for Janelle. Met up with Keeme at Jollibee. Hmm. May ka holding hands?! HULI! Haha! Went to the Cityland & Pasong Tamo Tower with a super friend. Rained real hard. Got semi-stranded. Read the horoscope (Super sakto I'm telling you! Haha.) Walked 'til we reach Greenbelt 1. More walks. Haha. Ate early dinner at John & Yoko, GB5. Glorietta. Park Square. Went home. It was such a lovely day! 7 hours of laughter and smiles! :)

Saturday
Stayed at home 'til 1am. My cousins and I went to White Avenue because we were bored. Haha. Good thing Ria was there. Time to partayyy!

Sunday
Went to Trinoma. Ate dinner at Fish & Co. Had dessert at Cafe Breton. Happy Happy!

Monday
Went to 168 Mall. Tiring yet fun! Had dinner at Cantina. Chilled at Starbucks. Cocktail drinks at Dapo (Somewhere along Abs-cbn). Sooo fun! My mom & titas are just so cool! We drank WITH them! Coolness! 'Til next time!

Xoxo,
Karen

Feeling Lonely

It's still the month of October but I can't help but think about what would my Christmas & New Year be like without the two most important people in my life. I'll be spending the holidays with my sister. Yeah, just the two of us. It's not that I don't want to, but I just feel lonely knowing that the holiday season won't be the same as before. Back when we're celebrating it together. Back when we're complete. *Sigh*

Btw, I am so loving this song! It makes me want to reminisce the good ol' times.

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart

Just let me hold you so we both fall down

Fall on me

Tell me everything you want me to be

Forever with you forever in me

Ever the same

Xoxo,

Karen

W-H-A-T-E-V-E-R, Bitch!

You always think that you're BEAUTIFUL.

Oh please. You ANNOY me oh so well well well.

Don't push your luck too much. I can be ANNOYING too, sucker.

HAHAHAHA :)

Xoxo,
Karen

Finally

I've been thinking about the "answer" to my so-called love problem. And just when I felt like surrendering, came my sister telling me: Wag ka na dyan. Wala ka namang mapapala dyan eh. You guys are not progressing.

Tada!

It's the answer I've been looking for all along.

I just blurted out: Oo nga noh? Kung naging tubig pa, STAGNANT.

My Ate Trina nodded to show her approval and uttered: Magkakasakit ka lang dyan.

I looked at her with dismay, and then she added: Stagnant, eh?

Haha. Double meaning.

Oh shit. It hit me so hard.

Now I know the reason why I lack the motivation to reply to his text messages. It's simply the fact that we are NOT progressing. We're in the same stage everyday. There's nothing new. Nothing special. Blah blah blah. I can't stand being in a situation like this. I mean, it can't be like this forever, right? I have no assurance. I have no control. I have nothing to hang on to. I cannot demand. I cannot argue. I cannot expect. Argh. Hate it.

Show me some light.

Xoxo,
Karen

IHB

We're slowly drifting apart.

I can feel it.

It's too obvious not to notice it.

That certain "spark" is diminishing.

Another heartache.

Another heartbreak.

I suppose. :(

Xoxo,
Karen

Celebration/s

I had my post birthday celebration at Burgoo with Mara and Mega. We watched Mirrors after that and headed straight to BedScene to chill.

Mara was forced to treat us because I told her that she doesn't have a birthday gift for me yet. Haha! We ordered a pitcher of Green-minded & onion rings. Loved it! Thanks, Mara, for the treat! You're the best! *smoochies* :)

My family, along with Raymund, went to Gerry's Grill, Bluewave, to attend Allen & Alvin's graduation party. They both graduated Civil Engineering in DLSU, Allen as Cum Laude and Alvin as Summa Cum Laude. Woah. I'm truly proud of what they've achieved through the years! I've known them since highschool, with much dedication, passion and hardwork, I really had no doubts that they're going to finish College with flying colors. Moving on, there were a lot of people there. The food was delicious. I was so full! There was even a band to make the party even more merry. :)

While I was there in party, I've realized several things. One of which is the fact that you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone. And I remember receiving a quote that says: Never ignore the person who loves you, cares for you, and misses you. Because one day, you may wake up from your sleep and realize that you've lost the moon, while counting the stars.

O-H W-E-L-L. Catch my drift.

Xoxo,
Karen

A Day To Remember

Chai and I went to the Megatrade Hall 3 for the 2nd Pinoy Nurse Expo 2008. We paid P100 for tons of leaflets. Haha. It wasn't worth it. We didn't stay long because John J (Chai's friend) arrived. We had our super late lunch at Sbarro. As usual, I ordered Baked Ziti and Rasberry Iced Tea. I missed Sbarro! The last time I ate there was during our NCMH days. I was with my RLE then. :)

It was my first time to meet John J. I've heard so many good things about him, and when I've finally met him, I've come to realize that he's more than what I've expected him to be. :) He's super nice! He even thought of eating dessert at The Old Spaghetti House as his birthday treat/surprise for me. See? That was just our "first" meeting. It's just too bad that he'll be leaving for the United States (for good) on Monday already. Aww.

He drove us home. I slept for like 3 hours. Did my usual thing--go online, watch my Kapamilya teleseryes, and text. Haha. Well, that's about it for now.

By the way, I hate liars. Err. Just thought about it.

Xoxo,
Karen

Sigh

Life is too short to stress yourself with people who don't even deserve to be an issue in your life.

Xoxo,
Karen

Happy BEE Day!

I just turned 22 yesterday. I know, right? I'm old. I feel old. Haha!

My cellphone started beeping even a couple of hours before the clock reached 12 midnight. There were a lot of people who remembered my birthday. Yay! Thanks to Cla & Ria (I suppose), for reminding our friends to greet me on my special day! I know them too well, and they know I'll be delighted to receive A LOT of text messages. Haha!

I started my birthday with a simple prayer in my room. I thanked God for all the blessings I've received for the past 21 years and for giving me another year to live. :)

These are the things that made my birthday worth remembering:

Cla and Ria asked me to go online at 12 midnight. Cla's surprise was truly touching! It made me cry, especially when I came across Joef's message. Joef and I have been friends since First Year College, and from then on, we have shared wonderful and bittersweet memories together. I remember confiding to him my rants and raves about Chris, the love of my life then. I always feel at ease whenever I talk to him. It seems as if he always has mood to listen, pieces of advice to share, and comfort to give. No wonder why he knows almost everything about my past lovelife. It's just so sad that he is already in the United States, and I know that it wouldn't be as easy as texting him out of the blue just because I have an update or so. But I know that this distance is just temporary. We'll get to see each other soon, and hopefully by then I'd get to introduce him to "THE ONE FOR ME." :)

My ex-boyfriend and I exchanged text messages for about 5 hours last night. I must admit that I missed him (a litlle.. a little too much..) but I'm guessing that it's just a normal feeling. I mean, we haven't seen and heard from each other for a couple of months already, so I have every right to miss him, right? Haha! Well well well, I owe him 22 burgers! Yikes. He must grow bigger than ever after that! Haha!

I had dinner with my mom, Ate Trina, Ate Trina's friends Ruff & Abby, Nick, Tita Zynn and Allen at John & Yoko, Greenbelt 5. Alvin missed it because he has a "visitor" so to say that he can't leave behind. Err. I feel so bad that he had to miss this special event just for that girl. It has been a routine or an SOP that everyone should be present on each other's birthday. Err. On a happy note, Tita Zynn & Allen gave me a chic dress and a CD (Renditions of Love Songs). I soooo love my dress! I'll wear it come November, my next vacation to Bohol. :) Anyway, I loved the food that I ordered (Ikay Fry and Japanese Fried Rice) and the Dalandan Iced Tea (Color blue). It was very hip! The waiters even sang Happy Birthday to me. They were really funny because there were two versions of the song--the serious one and the joyful one. I was reacting so bad when they were singing the serious one, but when they sang the joyful one, I was laughing so hard! Their voice and their facial expressions were truly delightful! Haha! Thanks, John & Yoko crew, for the dessert and for the entertainment. :) I'll definitely go eat there again soon!

After dinner, we headed straight to the EGI. My heart was throbbing for I was nervous that I'd get to see Alvin and the so-called visitor there. I actually did. After an hour or so. How awkward. Allen was looking at me once in awhile just to see how will I react. Haha! Funny. :) But it was really awkward.

I received an LBC delivery from Janelle at around 12:30 in the afternoon. I was really surprised! My mom even cried after reading Janelle's birthday message for me. Haha! It was really touching! She also gave me a gift certificate at Kamiseta. Aww. How sweet! I'll go to the mall in awhile and will probably use it already! Yay! I love you, Janelle! :)

I really feel so blessed to know that thorugh these years, I STILL have my family and friends with me in this wonderful journey called LIFE. :)

Xoxo,
Karen

It Has Been A While

Yes, it has REALLY been awhile since the last time I posted an entry here. There were a lot [and i really mean A LOT] of things that happened while I was away from LJ/Blogspot.

Yesterday, Pey, Chi, Cla and I met at 7/11 Dapitan and headed straight to PRC to get our Certificate of Passing and Certificate of Rating. After that, I asked Pey to accompany me to the mall to buy a picture frame for Cla. We went back to school to gather my pictures with Cla for I was planning on giving her a Photo Mosaic. It was a rush gift, but definitely worth it! I'm glad she loved it!

Later that night, I had my prebirthday celebration with Cla at Josefina Garden Grill and Restaurant.

I was really pleased to see my beloved friends there. I was semi-surprised to see him, sitting and waiting for me to arrive. It was suppose to be a "surprise" according to him but then he arrived earlier than me. Haha. I really did appreciate the effort and all. We all know that he just had an operation about a week ago, and even if he wasn't permitted by his mom to come to our birthday celebration, he still did, and i did appreciate it. If only I could tell him straight to his face that it meant so much to me. If only. Argh. I am such a coward. Err. Anyway, he left a little early, around 9:30 in the evening, but it was all good because what really mattered to me most was his presence. :) Cheesy. Haha.

I remember two Sundays ago, we were exchanging text messages and he said that his tummy was aching. It was neither nangangasim nor nanghihilab. I told him to go visit a doctor just so he can be seen/examined. Later that night, I was taken aback when he told me that he'll be confined and will be scheduled for appendectomy the following day. It was all happening so fast.

I was planning on surprising him in the hospital. I sent a text message to our common friends a day before we visited him, and even bought a get well soon card that says: Well, well, well... Soon, soon, soon! plus a Smorse cake at Red Ribbon, three balloons [could mean many things! Haha!], and a pink stressball for he was really in pain.

We went to his room, surprised him, got ourselves updated with the latest chikas and suddenly, this girl arrived. She opened the door wide enough to hit my left shoulder. She stared at me but didn't say sorry. A simple sorry could have been enough. Err. She was acting like she owns the room--opening the refrigerator, changing the channel on the TV [from Abs-cbn to GMA. Err.], and so much more. It really pissed the hell out of me. Show some respect, will you? Your name sounds like bitch. And so are you. Err.

It was an awkward situation. Really. Especially when we both know that we had a semi-hot conversation about 3 weeks ago. She told me not to tell the boy that she called me up. As obedient as I am, I didn't tell the boy about it for I was afraid that it would only cause trouble and make things even more complicated. But hey, if you ever try calling me or texting me again, I'll definitely have no second thoughts on telling him what you have been saying to me. Err. I just want to let this out. I am just effing pissed!

Enough about that. On a happy note, I'll be turning 22 tomorrow. Ugh. Time flies so fast. I am currently having mixed emotions. I'm happy because it's going to be my special day, meaning, my rules, my day, that kind of thing. I'd get to make a wish [I've been waiting for this moment! Haha!] and I'd get to receive birthday greetings and gifts [hopefully! Haha!] from my family and friends--the old and the new. Yay. What makes me kind of anxious is the fact that I'm expecting too much from my birthday, and I know that if tomorrow's happenings won't meet my expectations, I'll just feel disappointed. :( So what's a girl to do? Don't expect. Just don't. Err. It's easier said than done. Sigh. Hope everything turns out perfectly tomorrow, my birthday... my special day. :)

I received a text message from my ex-boyfriend just now. He told me that he couldn't wait for 12midnight to wish me a happy birthday. In fairness, he remembered. :)

Xoxo,
Karen

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